|Don't try fuckin playing me you fuckin scum|
Everyday I wonder what god has in store for me. Everything has to somehow fall in place one day but it’s never easy. It’s never easy to feel heart break or loneliness. It’s never easy to see someone you love watch their heart break. You want to wish it all away. You want the pain to stop. And you want better. We all want better. It’s our natural way of thinking. Thinking we deserve more or we are better then others. I don’t see why bad thins happen. I wish I could, but I simply can’t. I hurt , I feel pain, and I feel loneliness. I, everyday, think about a better life. Where I’m a better person. Personality wise and appearance wise. It’s a lot easier to say your beautiful then actually mean it. And when people say ” it’s on the inside which matters” are full of bullshit. Nobody looks on the inside anymore. I do fall victim to it.
I can only hope my life is going to be better. Hope. A four letter word with a lot of meaning.